Overbowing yourself is the kiss of death, especially for someone just starting into trad. I started with a 30 # Martin Ventura 30 yrs ago to get my form right. Roger Rothaar once told me that we should hunt with a bow 20% less heavy than one we could shoot well in our backyard. Forget any macho type ideas, or what you “should” be able to shoot. Accuracy and consistent form is waay more important. Good luck !